Waiting for an Apocalypse

“Method, Method, what do you want from me?  You know that I have eaten of the fruit of the unconscious.”  – Jules Laforgue, Moralités légendaires

The other day my wife attended an event at a well-appointed home in town where men in dark suits stood around to provide a sense of security that no harm would come to the visitors, even though the angel of death had visited this house on previous occasions, for it was a funeral home, well-steeped in boxing people up for the journey to the underworld.  So to call it a “home” is really a misnomer; that might sound cozy, but it is really a way station for the dead.  A layover.

Mistakenly thinking that she was attending a traditional wake and the dead person’s corpse would be there in a coffin, I suggested that she check out the casket and, if she liked its wood and the softness of its velvet liner, to inquire whether they had any sales going on, especially if they had a buy-one-get-one-free sale like the local supermarket often has for English muffins and other goodies.

I think she forgot to ask, but she did tell me that the elderly woman who died had been cremated weeks ago and that her ashes were in a box on a table.  Boxes, ah, little boxes.


I have long wondered why so many people are enchanted by sunsets, why they travel to see them and gasp in wonder that the sun disappears and night comes on.  Colorful yes, but not as glorious as the sunrise, the rosy-fingered dawn of every new day.  Why celebrate the death of the day and our journey into the underworld of sleep and the cave of dreams rather than the dawn of our awakening and new life.  Jokes aside, morbidity is not life-affirming.  The true apocalypse – Greek apokalyptein, uncover, disclose, reveal – is every dawn’s epiphany when we can dream while awake and create.


In Apuleius’s Metamorphoses there is the story of Cupid and Psyche, the former being a male god and the latter a female human.  Psyche, who has lost her lover Cupid but wants him back, is tricked by the goddess Aphrodite who challenges her, if she wants Cupid back, to take the dangerous journey to the underworld to retrieve a box of beauty cream.  Psyche goes and gets the box but is tempted to open it since it would enhance her already beautiful human appearance.  When she does, she falls into a deathlike sleep.  It’s an old story, forever new.  Switch the sexes if you wish.  Take 200 vitamin pills a day as many billionaires and other assorted crazies do intent on becoming immortal gods.  Good luck.  Get uploaded or downloaded into a computer, whichever it is, and live forever.  Maybe watch the sun set or perchance wake up.  And although Psyche is given a Hollywood ending when she is saved by Zeus and made immortal with the other gods in Olympus, that’s just an old movie.  We live by facts these days, not myths.  Ah, boxes.


The Boxer by Simon & Garfunkel
I am just a poor boy, though my story’s
seldom told
I have squandered my resistance for a
pocketful of mumbles
Such as promises
All lies and jest
Still a man hears what he wants to hear
And disregards the rest, hmm


Children love boxes within which they often hide their collections for safekeeping.  Give a child a box with a lid and it will be filled in no time.  Filled with little things that symbolize for children the vast infinity of secret space that is their hold on time.  Children are born poets and philosophers who over time are usually dulled by adults around them from whom they learn to hide their secrets and the questions these secrets raise.  The secrets often fester and die, only to live on in repressed lives.  I knew a man who collected cigar boxes.  They were everywhere in his house when he died.  Most were empty.  His wife outdid him with her collection of empty boxes: shoe boxes, jewelry boxes, every kind of box imaginable.  All empty.  Were they waiting to be filled?  With what?  Secrets? Another woman I knew had a box with an envelope inside marked, “My Father’s Magic Envelope – AKA Miracles.”  It was empty.  She pictured herself as a boxer in a sketch she drew, a child without a face with boxing gloves.  I can only guess at the secrets she was fighting to remember or forget. The experimental method is based on repetition, but so too is trauma.  Internment is not just for the dead.


Boxed in, boxed up, housed, enclosed. trapped, contained, caged , enveloped, bounded, penned, corralled, trapped: calling from my cell for help?  The screen lights up with a concatenation of phantom images that seize the mind, what the Greeks called eidolon.


Let’s forget about Pandora’s box, which was actually a jar in the original story.  Its last content being hope.  I once knew a girl named Hope.  She was very seductive. But I sensed she was trouble and escaped when she started to open up about her secrets.  I wasn’t very curious, just afraid.  So long, Hope, “it’s time that we began to laugh and cry and cry and laugh about it all again.”  Thanks, Leonard.


There are countless political analyses of what drives the United States’ ruling forces in their systematic, brutal, and remorseless wars of aggression around the world.  The perpetual effort to expand an empire originally built on the blood of indigenous people.  The refusal to live in peace within national boundaries.  The pushing of NATO expansion up to Russia’s borders.  It seems insane, which of course it is.  But what is behind such madness?  The secret may be quite simple.  Again the ancient Greeks come to mind as Roberto Calasso writes in The Marriage of Cadmus and Harmony, quoting the historian Jacob Burckhardt, when he wrote of the secret of war-loving Sparta: “But the power of Sparta seems to have come into being almost entirely for itself and for its own self-assertion, and its constant pathos was the enslavement of subject peoples and the extension of its own dominion as an end unto itself.”  Power as an end in itself.  Realizing this is apocalyptic in the revelatory sense, for it opens the box on the secret nihilism of the U.S. ruling elites.


I am waiting
to get some intimations
of immortality
by recollecting my early childhood
and I am waiting
for the green mornings to come again
youth’s dumb green fields come back again
and I am waiting
for some strains of unpremeditated art
to shake my typewriter
and I am waiting to write
the great indelible poem
and I am waiting
for the last long careless rapture
and I am perpetually waiting
for the fleeing lovers on the Grecian Urn
to catch each other up at last
and embrace
and I am waiting
perpetually and forever
a renaissance of wonder

– Lawrence Ferlinghetti, “I Am Waiting,”
for jazz accompaniment













5 thoughts on “Waiting for an Apocalypse”

  1. “Waiting for an Apocalypse” ? Well, what would be an intelligent plan of action ? Just wait ? Is there anything we could be doing ?
    I have no answers. Perhaps putting minds together, talking, sharing our life’s experiences, our trauma’s, finding a common ground of being human in a society in turmoil….for 247 years. We could continue to march in place in quick sand. Doesn’t make sense.
    Humans are meant to walk or run. Bicycles should have been the end to mechanical transportation. Now we have electric bicycles. We seem to have a problem with being human !

  2. The fate of Sparta will be the fate the US – “end unto itself”. Empires ignore history at their peril. It comes down to a simple syllogism: every empire eventually faces the war it is trying to avoid; everyone wants to avoid WW III; therefore, nuclear Armageddon is the fate that awaits. The future can never be changed if the past is denied.

  3. Thanks, Ed … I’ve always been a morning person myself … and more and more so as I age.

    Re what drives the masters of the universe: while power for the sake of power may have ruled Sparta, I feel our masters are of a far more practical, and perhaps even more nihilistic bent. Since the United States was created initially as a commercial enterprise as well as a religious one, and since the two got conflated nicely into the American way over those first crucial centuries, it seems to me what drives our masters is nothing more or less than amassing cash. That is it. We are in fact, as Israel’s Netanyahu said once, a rather simple nation.

    And there is nothing as easy to generate obscene amounts of unaccountable wealth from than war and chaos. So we are for war: not for power, not for empire or against tyranny, not for human rights, not for ideology; these are all just justifications and arguments and narratives to keep the smart people employed (and thus onboard) and busy and the common folks mesmerized and confused. The fact is that we fight wars because they enable the transfer of public monies into private pockets more efficiently than any other instrument so far devised.

  4. “Power as an end in itself.”
    I’m afraid you got that totally correct, Edwartd. So simple, so obvious.
    I’m even more afraid that such an agenda can easily become a pathway to suicide for the perpetrators, as they begin to perceive that the game is up, and they are soon going to lose.

  5. “Power as an end in itself. Realizing this is apocalyptic in the revelatory sense, for it opens the box on the secret nihilism of the U.S. ruling elites.” – I think you are spot on the money Ed. Unfortunately most people can’t really allow themselves to imagine that such evil even exists.

    It is deeply saddening to scan one’s lifetime and realize that between one’s youth and the present era any mass popular resistance to this “elite nihilism” has been quite effectively neutered. It has been propagandized into oblivion – into a “history” already largely forgotten – or rather in the parlance of Operation Condor and our dirty wars – a history simply – “disappeared.”

    From my teenage years we’ve gone from the civil rights and anti-war protestors of the 1960’s weathering the brutality of night-sticks, police dogs, water cannon, national guard bullets and KKK bombs – to what appears to be instead a rather narcissistic youthful obsession about “micro-aggressions” and “safe spaces”- (‘safely’ free of any “opinions” one does not agree with) – all on the most privileged college campus’s in the country. All with the full support and sanction of the proper adult institutional “authorities,” in the process rendering the very concept of “free speech” not simply to the dustbin – but labeling it “dangerous” and “unacceptable.” Nightsticks no longer being part of the equation – words are now – “violence.” It is difficult to imagine a more complete atomization of American society, and more complete neutering of resistance than we currently have – yet I dare not hold my breath on that notion.

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